Marriage is sometimes a battle...why? Is it a test of strength and will? Sometimes I look at my husband and think - he does not get it! All I want is for him to listen. It feels as if we are constantly butting heads - SO FRUSTRATING. I have learned to pick my battles - but him...nope! I know I can be a brat and this blog is totally one sided, but I just need to be heard.
When he is home, one thing I look forward to is a nice relaxing shower. He can watch Lucy while I can FINALLY have a moment to myself (please don't misunderstand, I LOVE and cherish every moment with her, but a girl needs a break!). Every single time, and I mean EVERY SINGLE TIME he rushes me because he has things to do. Now, he is a great father to her - but what's up with that? I'm working 24/7 and that shower is a moment of peace, clarity, reflection, relaxation, selfishness, etc, etc, etc....moms you know what I'm talking about right? ugh
This blog may seem petty and foolish but I feel better when I write. This simple task of taking a shower led into a full blown argument. I am sure there are more issues below the surface that were involved. We have retreated to our corners and are taking a break from each other - barely saying a word only if we have to. He is in "his" garage and I am in the bedroom wishing I was tired enough to go to sleep. I hate arguing, especially that tomorrow is his first fathers day and I will probably have to give in and be nice..wah wah wah. I am a believer that men have their "time of the month". I'm feeling frustrated, stressed and a little lost - I need to get over this.
Thanks for listening =)
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